The only dreams that last
Are the ones with my exes
No matter who I’m with,
It’s always one of them
We’re fucking or fighting
Or falling in love again
It’s trees, poetry, or fire
It’s time rewinding
And I wake up in love again
And I’m happy with her again
And my heart breaks again
And I’ve lost her again.
I wish it meant something
But it’s just ghosts in my head
It’s that evil prick depression
Coming back to cut me
It’s ten years, two, or two again
Meeting, falling, failing, forgotten
In a half remembered memory
Put together in restless sleep
As if to say, remember her,
Don’t forget all of her
Just enough for it to torture
When I wake up still in love
With a girl, no, a woman,
Remember it was five years ago
And you’re in love with your dreams